I find myself wishing for nightmares
Hoping the dark will justify the hurt
The pain

If I dive down
Deep down
Into the abyss
What answers will I find?

Visions of old familiar rooms made strange
Twisted and turning
Grotesque reimaginations of past lives
Remind me of the impenetrable tar still lining my lungs

When my mind turns upside down, will I understand?
Will the ache flip and dissipate?

Maybe there isn’t an answer
Maybe I should rest
Let the nightmares come
Welcome them with warm, open arms

Who is the darkness for, anyway?

7/13/20